I
I just want to be with you
I want to tell you everything
Just to know you're there
and that you're willing to listen
Even when I feel like I'm doing nothing but complaining
or whining
or something else bitches come up with
I don't want to seem needy
or clingy
I know you don't know much about girls
that's fine wit me
But what I don't understand is that I have to keep telling you the same thing
You told me you're happy if I'm happy
Good luck with that
No matter what happens I'm never completely happy like the fakes you see on the TV
Or the two-faced people we see at school
You asked me how to make me happy
I told you
Yet it seems like all y
Have you ever had a time
where you felt that everyone around you
is lying to you?
Have you ever had a time
where you felt you had
no where to turn?
And the most important person
you felt like they were lying
to you too?
It sucks
doesn't it?
Not knowing where to turn
not knowing who to go to
always feeling
like the words that roll off their tongues
are all made up
That they are only saying it
just to make you feel better
when in fact
all it is doing
is just making you feel worse
Like being stabbed in the back
cheated on by a loved one
even
debating on talking to anyone at all
Scared of what they are all going to say
putting it lie o
Please, don't ever let this end.
That's pretty much all I'm thinking nowadays. He's so sweet and kind. I feel like our personalities fit together almost perfectly, even if I feel like nothing to him. I will admit that yes, I do love him. Will I admit to being in love with him? I'm not sure yet. My aunt and best friend both say that you have to know someone your entire life for you to be in love with them. I know I've only known him a number of months, but I feel like I have known him forever. However, I am not quite sure if I am IN love with him. I do know, most definitely, that I love him. During our happy moments it's the most
I never wanted the day to end
The day that made my heart race
When my greatest dream came true
I never wanted the feeling to go away
Being with him made me feel whole
his arms wrapped around me
Making me feel safe under his wings
I never wanted him to have to go
The moment that could be ripped away at any second
His arms
His warmth
His heart beat
That made me feel so close
I never wanted the moment to end
never let him forget how much I love him
Always and forever wrapped in his arms
Feeling untouchable to all
But him
You know that girl that stands in the corner all the time? The girl that walks around the band room awkwardly, never talking to anyone? And the only person she wants to talk to, the person that means the world to her, she feels like he could care less about her. All she wants is his hugs, his words, his kisses. But yet, she feels like he doesn't want the same of her. He claims he cares, but she can do nothing but disbelieve. She's been lied to all her life, what makes her think it's all of a sudden going to change? He says that talking to her and just getting to see her, makes his day. She doesn't believe, she wants to, but can't. She feels l
My emotions for you
they're too much to handle
My heart races when I think of you
I'm too afraid to do anything
not knowing what to say
or what to do
Not knowing how you'll take it
positively or negatively
It hurts to think
you don't have the same feelings for me
I get too worked up over the possibility
that you may have the same feelings
but then everything just tumbles down
into everything disappointing
Sadness
regret
Feeling worse than I did before
Is any of it worth it?
Is it worth causing myself this much pain
just to know if he feels the same way?
You're heart says no
God says yes
You're brain says both
but which one's right?
Inside the deep mind
There are bereft thoughts
More extreme than the next
A dour expression on her face
A gibe she can speak
A guise she cloaks
To hide her screams of pain
To shield her sobs of anguish
Help, help, help
Her mind will let it run
She will think
Never speak
Never to hear the sounds
Of rejection
Of praise
Her heart talks of trust and faith
Her mind talks of shame and all no good
Help, help, help
Her heart can bear no more
An insidious plot she thinks
To end her forevermore
She approaches warily
Unaware of the pain she will cause
Tentative be
She still goes on
No more pain
No more suffering
The clank, cla
I
I just want to be with you
I want to tell you everything
Just to know you're there
and that you're willing to listen
Even when I feel like I'm doing nothing but complaining
or whining
or something else bitches come up with
I don't want to seem needy
or clingy
I know you don't know much about girls
that's fine wit me
But what I don't understand is that I have to keep telling you the same thing
You told me you're happy if I'm happy
Good luck with that
No matter what happens I'm never completely happy like the fakes you see on the TV
Or the two-faced people we see at school
You asked me how to make me happy
I told you
Yet it seems like all y
Have you ever had a time
where you felt that everyone around you
is lying to you?
Have you ever had a time
where you felt you had
no where to turn?
And the most important person
you felt like they were lying
to you too?
It sucks
doesn't it?
Not knowing where to turn
not knowing who to go to
always feeling
like the words that roll off their tongues
are all made up
That they are only saying it
just to make you feel better
when in fact
all it is doing
is just making you feel worse
Like being stabbed in the back
cheated on by a loved one
even
debating on talking to anyone at all
Scared of what they are all going to say
putting it lie o
Please, don't ever let this end.
That's pretty much all I'm thinking nowadays. He's so sweet and kind. I feel like our personalities fit together almost perfectly, even if I feel like nothing to him. I will admit that yes, I do love him. Will I admit to being in love with him? I'm not sure yet. My aunt and best friend both say that you have to know someone your entire life for you to be in love with them. I know I've only known him a number of months, but I feel like I have known him forever. However, I am not quite sure if I am IN love with him. I do know, most definitely, that I love him. During our happy moments it's the most
I never wanted the day to end
The day that made my heart race
When my greatest dream came true
I never wanted the feeling to go away
Being with him made me feel whole
his arms wrapped around me
Making me feel safe under his wings
I never wanted him to have to go
The moment that could be ripped away at any second
His arms
His warmth
His heart beat
That made me feel so close
I never wanted the moment to end
never let him forget how much I love him
Always and forever wrapped in his arms
Feeling untouchable to all
But him
You know that girl that stands in the corner all the time? The girl that walks around the band room awkwardly, never talking to anyone? And the only person she wants to talk to, the person that means the world to her, she feels like he could care less about her. All she wants is his hugs, his words, his kisses. But yet, she feels like he doesn't want the same of her. He claims he cares, but she can do nothing but disbelieve. She's been lied to all her life, what makes her think it's all of a sudden going to change? He says that talking to her and just getting to see her, makes his day. She doesn't believe, she wants to, but can't. She feels l
My emotions for you
they're too much to handle
My heart races when I think of you
I'm too afraid to do anything
not knowing what to say
or what to do
Not knowing how you'll take it
positively or negatively
It hurts to think
you don't have the same feelings for me
I get too worked up over the possibility
that you may have the same feelings
but then everything just tumbles down
into everything disappointing
Sadness
regret
Feeling worse than I did before
Is any of it worth it?
Is it worth causing myself this much pain
just to know if he feels the same way?
You're heart says no
God says yes
You're brain says both
but which one's right?
Inside the deep mind
There are bereft thoughts
More extreme than the next
A dour expression on her face
A gibe she can speak
A guise she cloaks
To hide her screams of pain
To shield her sobs of anguish
Help, help, help
Her mind will let it run
She will think
Never speak
Never to hear the sounds
Of rejection
Of praise
Her heart talks of trust and faith
Her mind talks of shame and all no good
Help, help, help
Her heart can bear no more
An insidious plot she thinks
To end her forevermore
She approaches warily
Unaware of the pain she will cause
Tentative be
She still goes on
No more pain
No more suffering
The clank, cla
I am into sports. Soccer and cross country mainly. I am a so-called 'band geek'. Marching band is my trade. I will be a grammar Nazi if need be. I get agitated easily, and take everything seriously. I like to keep my personal life under lock and key. Watchers are welcomed and favorites are too. I don't bite. My specialty is writing and photography. You may see those more than actual drawings, if any at all. ALL OF THE PHOTOS I TAKE ARE 100% NON-PHOTO-SHOPPED. And I would really appreciate it if you guys would comment and maybe give me advice to how I can take them a little bit better. Critiquing and advice is greatly appreciated! :)
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Favourite Movies
Can't choose. Sorry.
Favourite TV Shows
Family Fued/Wipeout
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Green Day/Nickelback/Carrie Underwood
Favourite Books
The Running Dream
Favourite Writers
I don't know.
Favourite Games
Awkward Truth or Dare. I don't play video games all that much anymore.
Hey anyone have any career advice? I want to gain experience in the field of photography but I don't want to have to wait until the spring semester of my senior year to take the class for it. Especially since it might be what I want to major in when I go to college. I've tried looking around and emailing different people but I've gotten no responses. Any advice from anyone? Not just my watchers?
My plans are to take/upload more pictures now that marching band season is over. I will try to take more pictures of animals, but otherwise they will be of something else. Thanks for understanding. :)
I plan to be uploading more photos /literature /art as soon as possible. My mom took her camera back with her home, because we are on vacation, and she left me with a film camera, I don't think I can do much with it, so any photos I upload will be taken with my phone and wont be as good as some of the others.